Ok. So I said I was gonna try and blog every day, this that and the other thing and never followed through. I guess because I have to get on the computer every day to do so and sometimes there just isn't time. Well, I'm going to TRY to make time. Because writing is good and just letting stuff out is good. Sure.
So let's catch up: We moved into our new apartment June 5th, I'm the bar manager at Spiderman: Turn Off the Dark, my little boy gets bigger, stronger and smarter every single day, I got to spend once a week in the month of June with my beautiful bff Jaime and her little Caleb (my handsome little 'nephew') and my other gorgeous mama Melissa and her beautiful princess Layla (who I am so looking forward to babysitting in the fall), I'm doing my first cabaret in NY with one of my best friends, and I have made some new friends that are just the best thing since sliced bread.
Lucky. That's the word I would use to describe the way I feel right now.
Sunday, July 29, 2012
Monday, March 12, 2012
My little boy is the man
Hubby has been gone for 8 days now. It isn't AS bad as we thought it would be but jeez do we miss him here at home. I'm grateful for the one-on-one time I'm getting to spend with Nicholas. He is doing so many new things and his vocabulary grows every single day it's amazing. We are having a really great time together and I just wish it could always be like this. Stupid needing money to live! hahaa
He was speaking like a little man to my grandmother today and even speaking a little spanish! He's tall enough to need 3T pjs and pants. It's amazing. To think, in December he will be 3 years old already. It seems like just yesterday we found out about him hiding in there. I've been looking back at pictures of him when he was born, his first Christmas, his first birthday, etc. It's amazing to see the growth and change and maturity in this little guy. Now he is already a big cousin to Alexandria (my niece) and soon to be big 'cousin' to some of my closest friends' babies. I can't wait to see what he will teach them. I'm really looking forward to watching him grow and learn and be an example for other children.
I love my little boy :)
He was speaking like a little man to my grandmother today and even speaking a little spanish! He's tall enough to need 3T pjs and pants. It's amazing. To think, in December he will be 3 years old already. It seems like just yesterday we found out about him hiding in there. I've been looking back at pictures of him when he was born, his first Christmas, his first birthday, etc. It's amazing to see the growth and change and maturity in this little guy. Now he is already a big cousin to Alexandria (my niece) and soon to be big 'cousin' to some of my closest friends' babies. I can't wait to see what he will teach them. I'm really looking forward to watching him grow and learn and be an example for other children.
I love my little boy :)
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Back!
After about a million years away from this blog, I'm going to try my best to start up again for the maybe 2 people who read this.
Hubby is away for 3 weeks playing a show in Florida so I'm on full-time mommy duty and almost (but not quite) full time work duty. Not working AS much since I need to be home with the little guy. Time with him is just amazing.
He is so smart and so kind and just so lovely to be around. Unfortunately, though, he is a little ball of sass and I think that's a little bit of terrible two-ness creeping in. When he wants something he makes a mad face and says "GIMEE THAT" ... not fun. But we've had time out a few times so hopefully the habit gets kicked quickly.
Lots of other emotional things going on, good and bad. One of my best friends is due with her little man Caleb in April and I don't think I've been so excited about something in a very long time. I can't wait to shower him with love and introduce him to his hopefully future best bud/cousin Nicholas. It's really wonderful for me to watch two people so deserving of joy get such a wonderful gift in their lives.
I've been thinking, I think, a little too much lately on the past. I've been terribly missing someone who hasn't been in my life for 2 years now. Someone who I just can't seem to let go of and forget. Odd huh? Also, trying to balance a tumultuous friendship that is filled with so much love and care that doesn't necessarily always come to the surface. Difficult, I know.
Here's to blogging every day if I can and waiting for the wonderful things that should be taking place in the next few months.
"where do we belong?"
Hubby is away for 3 weeks playing a show in Florida so I'm on full-time mommy duty and almost (but not quite) full time work duty. Not working AS much since I need to be home with the little guy. Time with him is just amazing.
He is so smart and so kind and just so lovely to be around. Unfortunately, though, he is a little ball of sass and I think that's a little bit of terrible two-ness creeping in. When he wants something he makes a mad face and says "GIMEE THAT" ... not fun. But we've had time out a few times so hopefully the habit gets kicked quickly.
Lots of other emotional things going on, good and bad. One of my best friends is due with her little man Caleb in April and I don't think I've been so excited about something in a very long time. I can't wait to shower him with love and introduce him to his hopefully future best bud/cousin Nicholas. It's really wonderful for me to watch two people so deserving of joy get such a wonderful gift in their lives.
I've been thinking, I think, a little too much lately on the past. I've been terribly missing someone who hasn't been in my life for 2 years now. Someone who I just can't seem to let go of and forget. Odd huh? Also, trying to balance a tumultuous friendship that is filled with so much love and care that doesn't necessarily always come to the surface. Difficult, I know.
Here's to blogging every day if I can and waiting for the wonderful things that should be taking place in the next few months.
"where do we belong?"
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Emotion
I'm not even sure I have anything worthwhile to post, but I've been so super emotional lately I feel like I just need to write. Lots of things are happening and I've been very busy working (gratefully) but things are still qutie rocky and I'm plowing through. My book is definitely helping me out there, keeping me on the road to happiness and to the positive side of things. I just find that lately I cry very easily. Needless to say, I cry easily on a normal basis, but lately it's been ridiculous. I'm trying to chalk it up to female issues but I can't help but think I'm just in a general funk.
In keeping with my attempt to stay positive and focus on that, here are a few things I'm thankful for this week:
- Peej - my beautiful, smart, healthy son - my husband who loves me even though - Sarah Grace - the author of the book that i'm reading - for friendships that are strong and true - that Jaime has a healthy baby coming in 2012 - paper and pens - DVR - my jobs - restraint
enjoy your day folks.
In keeping with my attempt to stay positive and focus on that, here are a few things I'm thankful for this week:
- Peej - my beautiful, smart, healthy son - my husband who loves me even though - Sarah Grace - the author of the book that i'm reading - for friendships that are strong and true - that Jaime has a healthy baby coming in 2012 - paper and pens - DVR - my jobs - restraint
enjoy your day folks.
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
The Happiness Project
This is the title of the book I am currently immersed in, not coming up for air. It is a memoir about this woman who decided that she was happy ... but not as happy as she should/could be. So she decided to take on a 12 month Happiness Project. She took on all these age-old ways to make yourself more happy and also created her own ways putting a set of resolutions on every month and then adding the next month's set.
I can absolutely relate to this woman and how she came about starting this Happiness Project. I am not even halfway through this book yet, and I have taken vigorous notes, and begun to develop my own Happiness Project. I, of course, will not be starting my own until I have finished her book and learn all I can learn. I do need to say though, to whoever may be reading this, that you can always be happier than you are if you just look at yourself and work through YOU. Don't make your unhappiness about other people because it isn't.
I will absolutely be updating a bit more often as that is one of the factors to being more happy. For now, I leave you with one 'Secret of Adulthood' of my own creation.
"More often than not, procrastinating about something causes more physical and emotional hurt than would be caused if you did that something right away"
I can absolutely relate to this woman and how she came about starting this Happiness Project. I am not even halfway through this book yet, and I have taken vigorous notes, and begun to develop my own Happiness Project. I, of course, will not be starting my own until I have finished her book and learn all I can learn. I do need to say though, to whoever may be reading this, that you can always be happier than you are if you just look at yourself and work through YOU. Don't make your unhappiness about other people because it isn't.
I will absolutely be updating a bit more often as that is one of the factors to being more happy. For now, I leave you with one 'Secret of Adulthood' of my own creation.
"More often than not, procrastinating about something causes more physical and emotional hurt than would be caused if you did that something right away"
Sunday, September 11, 2011
9/11
Today I am hugging my son and my husband a little bit tighter than usual.
I'm a crier, I cry easily and often. What can I say, I'm emotional. Today I watched just about 20 minutes in total of the name readings at the World Trade Center (which btw looks beautiful the way they've rebuilt it. I'd love to go visit and etch some names of those brave people who died that day). In any event, during that 20 minutes of watching I saw people reading names who had lost mothers, brothers, sisters, fathers, in-laws, cousins, aunts, uncles, friends, best friends, fire fighters, police men, port authority police and more. My heart breaks for these people, all of them. I have been fortunate in my life to not have suffered many deaths in my immediate family and I am so grateful for that. My mind can't help but wander to those children who were still unborn when 9/11 happened. Those unfortunate children (because I can't think of a better word than unfortunate) that didn't have the chance to meet their mother or father because of that fateful day. I saw photos of some of these children, some of them that read some names. There were children who were too young at the time to really remember their parents that was lost that day. I wouldn't want to imagine what it would be like for them. One boy in particular read names towards the end and said "and my father, I wish you could be here to give me advice and cheer me on on the sidelines when I play sports just like the other dads" There wasn't a hint of anger in his voice, not one. He was grateful that his father was a hero. It sincerely broke my heart and uplifted me at the same time. To those children I say, live life to the fullest and always remember those you lost on that day. Everyone's heart is with you, across the country and in others.
When I couldn't watch anymore I switched to FOX where the Philadelphia Eagles and St. Louis Rams were getting ready to begin their pre-game ceremonies. There was a lone trumpeter playing TAPS while they showed footage of those in the stadium and those around the country. Afterwards, they unraveled an American flag the size of the field. The football teams held one side as members of the police, fire department and crew pulled the other end across the field. Both teams, together, representing what our country is really about. An amazing Naval officer sang the National Anthem and it was beautiful. There were players with tears streaming down their face. Followed up by every person in the crowd chanting "USA! USA!"
I can't help but be grateful today for my family and my friends who mean the world to me. I'm so blessed that I did not lose anyone on that day. I continue today to pray for those who were lost and their families. I continue every day to thank God for our troops who voluntarily protect our country every day. I continue to thank God for our police officers, fire fighters, port authority workers, volunteers and anyone else who gives their life and work for us.
God Bless all these families and God Bless our Nation and it's President.
I'm a crier, I cry easily and often. What can I say, I'm emotional. Today I watched just about 20 minutes in total of the name readings at the World Trade Center (which btw looks beautiful the way they've rebuilt it. I'd love to go visit and etch some names of those brave people who died that day). In any event, during that 20 minutes of watching I saw people reading names who had lost mothers, brothers, sisters, fathers, in-laws, cousins, aunts, uncles, friends, best friends, fire fighters, police men, port authority police and more. My heart breaks for these people, all of them. I have been fortunate in my life to not have suffered many deaths in my immediate family and I am so grateful for that. My mind can't help but wander to those children who were still unborn when 9/11 happened. Those unfortunate children (because I can't think of a better word than unfortunate) that didn't have the chance to meet their mother or father because of that fateful day. I saw photos of some of these children, some of them that read some names. There were children who were too young at the time to really remember their parents that was lost that day. I wouldn't want to imagine what it would be like for them. One boy in particular read names towards the end and said "and my father, I wish you could be here to give me advice and cheer me on on the sidelines when I play sports just like the other dads" There wasn't a hint of anger in his voice, not one. He was grateful that his father was a hero. It sincerely broke my heart and uplifted me at the same time. To those children I say, live life to the fullest and always remember those you lost on that day. Everyone's heart is with you, across the country and in others.
When I couldn't watch anymore I switched to FOX where the Philadelphia Eagles and St. Louis Rams were getting ready to begin their pre-game ceremonies. There was a lone trumpeter playing TAPS while they showed footage of those in the stadium and those around the country. Afterwards, they unraveled an American flag the size of the field. The football teams held one side as members of the police, fire department and crew pulled the other end across the field. Both teams, together, representing what our country is really about. An amazing Naval officer sang the National Anthem and it was beautiful. There were players with tears streaming down their face. Followed up by every person in the crowd chanting "USA! USA!"
I can't help but be grateful today for my family and my friends who mean the world to me. I'm so blessed that I did not lose anyone on that day. I continue today to pray for those who were lost and their families. I continue every day to thank God for our troops who voluntarily protect our country every day. I continue to thank God for our police officers, fire fighters, port authority workers, volunteers and anyone else who gives their life and work for us.
God Bless all these families and God Bless our Nation and it's President.
Monday, August 22, 2011
Taking Control
In life, there isn't enough time to let things pass by. You can't assume that things will turn out your way if you just sit there and let things happen to you. MY Monday Motivation (thanks Jaime) is taking control. I AM TAKING CONTROL.
No more letting life pass by and leaving things unsaid and undone. I'm taking control of me and my life. Love ferociously, live life without regret, take life by the horns.
It's going to be a great ride ...
No more letting life pass by and leaving things unsaid and undone. I'm taking control of me and my life. Love ferociously, live life without regret, take life by the horns.
It's going to be a great ride ...
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